I took a ride on the bike that evening and I was thinking, before i left the door, maybe just a few minutes ride to get some air. And so i thought.
After a short distance from my house, I saw someone. Someone that i am not close to at all, not that i am fond with either. I could, in fact cycle a little faster, or turn to a particular junction, and what ever happens after that, wouldn't be my business at all.
I didn't.
Hey, Exercising?
Nah, not at all. Just to get away from boredom. And, you?
I am joining a run, so i am just working out. Need to get ready, its going to be a 7 km run.
Oh wow, that's great.
Maybe i should say good bye. You make your run, i take my bicycle ride.
I didn't.
How about you run, and I'll cycle.
Yeah sure.
You sure? I'm on the bike.
You'll see.
We talked almost about anything. I don't know what we have in common, but i just keep bringing up topics. But there will always be an awkward silence between the conversations. And i was thinking, again, that i should take a turn and just "see ya".
I didn't.
There are so many junctions, so many times I've been thinking and wanted to do the same thing. But,
I didn't.
How many decisions have i made? In my life, how many decisions have i made?
What if i take that one certain turn, something else might happened right?
But i am going to lose all that talks that we are going to make after that.
Can i just trial and error? With my life? Just go forward, and reverse; save and delete.
If this could really happen, i would have tried so many things, without even need to care about the consequences. I could be a painter instead, a pianist or even a punk.
Will this do me good?
Everything i do, wouldn't have a meaning and i wouldn't do the best out of all the things i try to do. The things i do wouldn't have any effect on other people. It would just be like video game.
Just, Trial & Error.
The water in the veins of the leaf
flowing through the thousands of
small little branches
each with different destiny and
at each of the junction
they need to decide
to go or not to go
they do have many choices
but there is no turning back.
In the end, i choose to cycle with him until he reaches his house and he said,
I don' t know why, but i don't feel tired at all.
He already ran for 2 rounds around the housing area and that's like, 6 km.
Somehow i am happy that he says that. Looks like I've made a good choice, making myself a little bit happier.
Later, he asks if i want to cycle one more round again. I was thinking, maybe i should, we could talk more. This time,
I didn't
Again.
I am just tired, i want to go home, sit down and watch tv. HAHA.
