Need to talk
It wasn't the 1st time i felt this way, that i couldn't speak at all... I don't know if i was shy, afraid? or no confidence to speak out. But anyhow, i feel sorry for myself in the end of the day.
What i did realize is that my brain wasn't processing conversations and reply in return at the speed as it is suppose to be, and somehow, my thought's were always a second late when the topic was already over. No idea why is it like that, but hey, that's the way it is...
Lol, it is funny that i get tensed up when i want to talk, and then the words that came out were all jumbled up together. I need to take it easy. Really need to.
and where are those words when i need them, it just disrupts the conversation while i was thinking for those specific words. Don't know if i am just having a bad memory, of is it because i was always lazy to think, that now it has become a habit.
phew.....sorry, i need to vent it out somehow. It really pains all the way up to the chest.
Most people say, virtual space is where people speak out their emotion, and here i am, doing it. But i never liked it, because its so fake, and loses the human touch. Anyway, it is better than nothing at all.
I hope i wont, or not even thinking about posting this ever again.
